OmuYasha

I have created a discord server for any of you who wish to discuss about whatever. Feedback is always appreciated. https://discord.gg/tnM5z5D2Yq

I spent 5 minutes staring at my x-acto knife today. Realized no matter what I did nobody would fucking care if I went through with it.

I don't mean to bother you, I am formally apologizing to you, and I informing you that unfortunately I will more than likely stop writing. I don't have much support or friends on any of the sites I am on where I post. I've been struggling with depression and thoughts of suicide for twenty years. It has gotten worse, so much that it has affected my writing and most days I can't even get out of bed or the house. I don't feel like I belong anywhere. Yes, I have been in a breakup recently, and I have managed to resist taking a knife to my throat. I have thoughts of inferiority and lack of self-worth have been turned up to eleven right now from the usual eight. I hate dating. I hate having to be reminded of how undesirable I am with every rejection. I'm only keeping myself alive for the sake of my family, but I do want to end this pain and meaningless existence of mine. I'm sorry to disappoint you, ~Omu